想你。

如果有一天，我突然消失了，你会不会发疯一样的找我，然后因为找不到我而难过。

WB033K155

-29th September 2011-

Ate too much and feel like vomiting. See what I ate: a bowl of oat, cream puff, lamb chop, sausage, one and a half packet of maggie, orange, a bowl of barley and hokaido cake. omg can you just imagine this? I'm eating for the whole afternoon! Gained weight! The worst part is the ONE AND A HALF PACKET OF MAGGIE! Bloated after dinner. And not feeling well after that. See, this is the consequences eating non-stop .__.

-30th September 2011-

Went to school. Sit in the mph until my butt pain! Alright, I went to school today to check out where's my seat for pmr and get the pmr slip :) I'm not really satisfy with my sit though, my left side, in front and behind, all boys! argh! Luckily sooksan sitting on my right side :) but i know she don't like sitting with me during exam, HAHAHAHH! She says I always shake my legs during the exam and its annoying, hahahha. But my brain can't function when I sit firm, I must shake my legs. Shaking legs become my habit since... umm dono when. Daddy's genes? hmm maybe, HAHAHA. After recess, we just sit in the mph until school dismiss. Teachers giving speech and every teacher keep on repeating the same thing, like really exactly the same sentence they repeat. Remember to bring identification card la, must be original one la, bring the pmr slip la, don't come late to school la, and then somemore remember to take care of ourselves, huh...? Means we don't need to take good care of ourselves if we're not sitting for pmr? Weirdo .___. After school I went for tuition *unconscious* was half-dreaming, half-sleeping. And then when er jie came and fetch me, she told me that the school sent me a warning letter today. It was about skipping school for 17 days. Duh. I was like wth -.- I thought daddy gonna lecture me when I tell him about this, but then he's in a good mood today, so he just asked me, "still dare to skip school again after pmr?" I told him its holiday after pmr. And he was like:"Then what for the school sends you a warning letter? Nothing better to do ah??" HAHAHA. Hmm luckily no lecturing from daddy, God bless me, hahah.

I'm having pmr in three days time. Can you believe it? Hmm, I feel like I'm dreaming. Haven't finish revising actually. I gave up on Science Form 3 chapter 7, its about ELECTRICITY. Okay, I hate that. I don't know what's that all about -.- God bless me, don't come out in the papers, especially the one with experiment okay. Was busying photostating pmr tips recently. At first I thought pmr won't have tips, but then more tips are given, and there's more I need to prepare. Because I know I'll crush my head on the wall if the exam paper comes out like what I have for my tips and I didn't study that. Bleh. Stupid. The day is just around the corner, jie was asking me, "eh how come you're like nothing? The exam is on next week!!" "I know its on next week, so what response you expect to get from me? Too nervous until I jump everywhere ah?" .______. haha. And daddy asked er jie,"her (means me lah) exam is on next week, so what do you think?" er jie just smile and say "okay one lah, sure okay". And this makes me feel so stress inside. This is the disadvantage when you're the youngest in the family and your sisters got good results for the exam, parents will expect you to get the same results as what jiejie got. STRESS de leh. Okay enough about exams. I'm nervous now, I'll sleep soon and wake up early tomorrow for revision, duh. Think further, 10 more days and I'll be free from exam fever! Hiah hiah hiah :D

loves from iwei.

WAKE-ME-UP.

Alright, I slept quite early last night. Thinking that maybe I can wake up at 6am in the morning and start studying :) Good thoughts right? And guess what, I woke up at 10am this morning! GREAT! I slept too much ._. I snoozed my alarm until my alarm get "mad" and it doesn't wake me again :'( luckily my mummy came in and sayang me this morning and I wake up, otherwise I think I'll sleep until 1pm -.- wth. Well, because there's jie and mummy at home with me today, so I talk more than study -.- Somemore this evening I'm thinking that maybe I can get a 20minutes nap, so I set my alarm to wake me up after 20minutes. I slept at 4pm, so I'm suppose to set my alarm at 4.20pm, but you know what, I think I'm too excited that I'll have a nap after setting the alarm and I set my alarm at 4.20Am!!! Sooo great! When I woke up, it was already 5.30pm -.- I was shocked! I thought I snoozed my alarm again, but then I realized I set the wrong time -.- too smart ._. So I ended up studying just 4 chapter of science for the whole day. Epic fail. Alright, so I think I've already have enough sleep today, I'll sleep now, and wake up early tomorrow. God bless me not snoozing my alarm again :) Prayers needed! xo

loves, iwei.

Exam anxiety.

What if my results are bad? I don't know what will happen. And dare not to think that far :(
Butterflies in my stomach, worrying thoughts, feeling nervous all the time.
God, help me please. I cry out for your name ;'(

Amazing.

-Proverbs 12:15-

Fools think their own way is right,

But the wise listen to others.

AWESOME PEOPLE.

They randomly crossed my mind today.

The AA people.

From the oldest to the youngest.

enthong, jody, esther, jenyi, ivory, jessshynn, tingting, weekie, yiiwen.
Do you guys still remember 13th of July 2009?
Awww.

Seriously miss you guys so much! :'(

闯。

我大好的一个人，干嘛要跑到别人的生命里去当插曲。

:)

想找人倾诉时，却习惯了对自己说，明天就好了。

Fear.

I was in front of the mirror just now, and I talked to my sister, she's behind me. I told her: "eh I feel like I'm dreaming." She asked me why. I told her: "I'm having pmr next week. Its so unbelievable!" She said: "Yeah its normal, I used to have the same feeling as you do. And I even think that I won't be sitting for pmr when I'm in primary six. I think it will be the end of the world before I have my pmr." HAHAHA. so stupid. And yeah, nine more days to go. Pmr is near, very very near. I'm stress, worried, nervous inside. Haven't finish revising. I know it, I know I don't have enough time for revision. I'm starting to regret for not using my time wisely. I'm so sorry God :( I'll do my best from now on, I promise.

ps wyeinn, miss you too ;) so touching after reading your post :')
God loves you <3

loves, iwei.

My day.

Well, I've skipped school for the past three days. And went back to school again this morning. 6am my alarm rang, and I snoozed it, every five minutes it rang again and again *annoying* but what to do, I need to wake up. So I reached school at around 7 something. I was walking into the school, thinking that hmm, it has been a long time since I woke up this early and having fresh air, and a big surprise coming on, just when I reached the staircase of my block, the staircase was so freaking smelly! I hold my breath walking up to the third floor, like wtf, so smelly?! And somebody claims that it was the cat's shit ._. And because my place is so near to the staircase, I kind of feel like the smell follows me upstairs until my place. I can't stand that smell, so I just went off, stood at the corridor alone, for fresh air. Everyone went downstairs for the so-called assembly. And I met keten downstairs. While we were talking, shwufang walked towards me, holding a piece of tissue. I wished her a Happy Belated Birthday :) And she gave me the tissue because I told her in facebook that her post in her blog is so touching that I cried until my house was flooded, she said the tissue is for me to wipe away my tears. Awww... So sweet of her ♥ After that the bell rang, I went into the class, doing some revision, started to get bored and finally I slept. Didn't wake up until Mr Lok came in, he asked me and keten to wake up, go wash our face, but we continue sleeping until he called us for the second time. Hahah. And after his class was chinese. Bored. School dismiss. And then I followed keten to her house. Had lunch, bath and talking some stuff with her. After that, having tuition for 3 hours. Half way during the class, I'm thinking, omg, seriously my eyes can't open! What's wrong with my eyes? I think obviously the word sleepy is written on my face, hahah. I saw keten also having that sleeping face next to me, HAHAHA. Seriously I think 3 hours class continuously is too long, no break leh ._. And I can feel that my bladder is going to burst. Hahaha. After tuition, my aunt fetch me home as my parents went to Kuantan this afternoon. And so she brought me, jie, er jie and one of my cousin for dinner at Fridays. The food was super nice, but the service was bad. Anyway, I just care about the food lah, ok, hahaha. And ended up extremely full! Consequences of eating too much :p I think I gained weight after this meal, huh. Home sweet home then :)

*hugs*

喜欢拥抱，因为那感觉很温暖。

SMILE.

Every time you smile at someone, it is an action of love, 
a gift to that person, a beautiful thing. 

对别人微笑一次， 实际上就用行动爱了一次， 
送了一件爱的礼物， 一样美妙的东西。

对不起。

亲爱的上帝，

我做错了吗？

;(

miss me?

._.

xo

我已经退一步了，

所以请你不要得寸进尺。

爱你。

我们爱，

因为上帝先爱我们。

饶恕。

你们站着祷告的时候，

若想起有人得罪你们，

就当饶恕他，

好叫你们在天上的父，

也饶恕你们的过犯。

-马可福音11:25-

Life.

School dismissed, I got back home and quickly walk towards the car park. Its empty, where's mummy's car? I thought she's coming back today? Sadly, I walked into my house, and as usual I have to open the door and everything on myself because no one is at home. Sometimes I really hate getting back home and found there's nobody, so sad :( And so I quickly gave mummy a call, asking if she's on her way home. She said she just reached Bentong, and she asked me to help myself for lunch, don't wait for her. I was like "umm ohh okey :( " I'm hungry cause I haven't eat anything since I woke up this morning. I did not have my breakfast, and did not go to the canteen for recess as it was raining heavily this morning. Was freezing because one period before recess, more than half of the class were being chased out of the class by Puan Sujata, including me, for not bringing her essay book. Alright, I bring it most of the english lessons but she didn't use it, who knows she wants to use it today, and so great, I didn't bring it. We were like freezing outside the class, but still enjoying my first time being chased out of the class, hahah. Okay, I'm out of topic I know. Alright and then, I simply grab a packet of junk food jie bought that day, roller coaster, wheee~ and I didn't finish it because I know its fat, awww. So I ate a plum after that. And the door bell rang. Owh my mummeh, she's back finally, I miss her like so damn much :') *hugs* I thought she said she won't reach so fast? Its just one hour before when I called her just now, hmm she's speeding huh? And I realized that she almost change a new hairstyle every time when she's back from Kuantan. Hahah. So we planned to go for lunch together. Then before we go out, daddy called. He said he will be going to Kota Kemuning for some job, asked mummy if she wanna go there for lunch, and of course I followed them :D Daddy left us at a cafe for makan, and he go to work somewhere else around there :) I had lunch with mummy and told her alot of things ;D We waited for daddy for quite a long time, he finally came and picked us up in the evening. I was quite sleepy and fell asleep in the car. And when we reached home, jie was asking me, where did you all go, what did u guys had for lunch, full or not, and I know her point was "you all full already then means we're not having dinner tonight lah?? oh no!" She just loves eating so much, like me ;) But we still had dinner la, cause daddy also haven't eat mah. I ate a little bit, hehe. After dinner, mummy said she wants to go to the pasar malam near our house, asked daddy to drop us there. And daddy stopped his car somewhere along the road, then jie suddenly said: "eh pa, can u stop in front abit? There's a man sitting under the tree, open his legs wide, and the part under the pants was torn." Then I quickly asked: "HAR?!! Can see his private part ah? omg!!" Obviously, he's a pervert with mental problem! Omg, since when a pervert came to our neighborhood?! This is soooo dangerous, and yucks! And so we just quickly walk away and head towards the pasar malam. Waaa, so many foreigners in the pasar malam today ._. We just simply walked around and bought some stuff, then walked back home. Huh! Tired. Alright, should stop now, its already 1.20am. Have to sleep too even though I'm skipping school tomorrow, exhausted, and my shoulder is stiff again :( So pain :'(
Goodnight peeps, wo ai ni, shang di ye ai ni :)

loves, iwei.

FLOWER ♥

Happy Birthday Shwufang!!

很珍惜和你相处的六个月，

虽然时间不多，

但是我觉得你很特别很可爱！

虽然你已经很美了，

还是祝你青春美丽啦。

爱你 ♥

:D

Forever.

How wide You open up Your arms
When I need Your love

And how far You would come

If ever I was lost

MUMMEH :)

Haven't seen mummy for so long.

Like two weeks? 

Or three weeks :(

And the good news is, she's coming back tomorrow! :D

Aww I miss you loads, mummy ;)

See you after school tomorrow!

Hypersomnia.

我是患了嗜睡症吗？

只有在看到书本才会发作的嗜睡症。

糟糕 ._.

*smile*

Life still goes on no matter what.
I'll learn to be stronger.

Amen :)

<(")

Sometimes I feel like I'm being forgotten.

Owh hi!

I look at the history book, dreaming for hours today.

Nothing gets into the brain.

gaaaaahhh ;(

Pmr is coming soon, but I'm still dreaming.

What's the problem now? xo

Btw, 

wanna wish someone who is special in my life today.

Happy Birthday sis!

Jesus loves you!

And I miss you!

Yea, its you lar wyeinn, the awesome one.

May God's blessings be upon you, amen.

;)

lvs from iwei.

Cool.

I hate it when some people can just ignore me like nobody's business. 

:')

我不敢爱你，

因为我怕你不会像我爱你一样地爱我。

;(

loves, iwei.

Touching.

大雄，如果我没有了口袋，你还会继续爱我吗？

无论你有没有口袋，我的爱，永远都在。

♥

AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

I'll teach my kids to sing like him in the future x)

Exam stress?

I knew it, I don't have much time to study for PMR. So I'm trying really hard to concentrate on studies recently. Somehow I still get distracted by something else. My study mood is on, you can see it obviously on my face
--- pimples popping out @#$%^&*! Daddy was asking me: "eh what's wrong with your face?" -.- And I guess its the so-called stress...? If stress was a diet, I would be a supermodel ;) *ohh dream on!*

You noob.

HELLO! :D

PMR. I'm worried inside, but always get distracted by things around and ended up looking at the books, learning nothing. Computer, food, songs, phone, etc. God, please let this things die far far away from me! I seriously can't study with these stuffs around me! ;( Everyone is studying, I'm doing nothing. Day-dreaming, night-sleeping -.- Shit, I must focus. I still have loads of things to study x( I'm always dreaming about what to do after pmr, what movies to watch after pmr, where to go for shopping after pmr! Nothing about geography, history, maths and science in my mind. Hopeless? :( imuststudystudystudyandstudy.

I missed you today.

Just like I did yesterday.

And just like I would tomorrow.

:)